A Happy Memory

Four years ago today, we found out we were going to be parents for the first time.  I remember like it was yesterday.  The anticipation, the hopefulness.  The overwhelming joy when I found out that we were indeed pregnant.  Running to the bookstore to buy books.  Anxiously awaiting Pat’s arrival from work so I could tell him the good news.  I wish I had a picture of myself that day to capture the joy, excitement and instant love I felt for our baby. I miss Brienna so much, but looking back on the unadulterated joy of that day makes me smile.  There is something magical about finding out you’re pregnant for the first time.  The happiness and excitement we felt on that day can never be replaced or taken away.  And I love that it’s unique to Brienna.

We took advantage of the great weather this afternoon and went to the beach.  Pat, Bailey and I walked that same beach countless times when I was pregnant with Brienna.  And today while we were there, butterflies were flitting around us the entire time (I couldn’t catch them on camera though).  It was like my whole little family was together.  And I loved it.